Homes

Trying to find a house in Fang is not easy. Well at least not for me. I seem to have way too many ideas what my home should be and should have. I really want 3 bedrooms because you need to look in the future, right?

And some sort of study is quite handy too since Ben works at home and with Liam roaming around he should have a quiet place to work, right?

Well, than we get to the airconditioning and that's just as important because I can't stand the hot weather here at all.

Further it can't be too old because Thai houses are not looked after, so old ones are just horrible. I also want a western kitchen inside the house instead at the back somewhere. Pretty reasonable right?

So now I put it out there what I think I need. Ben always tell me to pray about it but this is something too embarrassing to even consider praying about. I really think I need all this comfort and it makes me rather uncomfortable.

I go around town looking for a house and asking people as well and than I have to explain what I look for. I need to be kind of clear of my wishes so they don't need to come back to me with a 'normal Thai house'. I better be clear because I don't want to waste their time trying to arrange viewings... I've had people in the past getting out of their way showing me in their eyes a perfect home for a falang and all I can do is smile and try to think how to say I rather keep looking. It's just confusing about how different people view things in life. Anything really, but now about houses I notice that I look with so completely different eyes. I look for a convenient layout, practical for work and noice for our boy and light; the Thais look for how many people could fit in and if it's close to other houses for safety and if the house has no bad spirits. I want a toilet and hot water, they couldn't care too much for that; a bucket does the job just fine.

I believe I need the whole wishlist, do I really? Well we can share the bedroom alright, what about no airco? Oh dear me, I get hot with just the idea... Am I so spoiled???

Somehow the worry about not having a house is not there anymore, now I mainly worry about being a spoiled person. It just makes me think about our Shan friends living in bamboo or concrete huts shared with many people. With only scarce electricity and running water close by. Well one thing is for sure, I will once again deeply appreciate my safe and warm bed tonight.

Maybe something inbetween?